flirting with girls on the phone nowadays seemed to be my newly-found hobby, all courtesy of aidil. yana, nana, yati, whats the diff? and it really helps if ure on duty at night to pass the time away rather than wander aimlessly under the moonlight.

i dunnoe why, but my menggatal makin sudah menjadi2. i guess its just being lonely, but i know that cannot be the reason. but really, i find talking with yana very comforting indeed. no longer were the days where i would wince in pain when using the word 'i' and 'u' in any conversation; eg. 'u dah makan?' . dah makin memandai, org kata. im quite surprise too when we began to share some of our problems when i think we're not even halfway thru with the 'ice-breaking' session. aidil said we trust each other.

and coz i think she made me feel appreciated. i told her how i dislike/scared off gory movies, and she told me that its normal. when i say a guy shouldnt be that way, she still insisted that its normal. HAH! i dun care if she's lying or not, but it sure does make me feel accepted. and when i imitate all those nonsensical voices it makes her laugh..and even told me that not many ppl have that kind of 'talent'; and i even received a new nickname for that! HAHAA. i dun noe if she's a sweet talker,or a downright liar just to make me feel good, but WHO CARES? it feels good! (hahaa, as im writing this,now i know how shallow my mind can be at times).

and we sure do laughed alot. she even said that its been a while that she had laughed this much, and how much it helps her to soothe some of her own problems and this sure make me feel kind of 'levelled up'. u know, the feeling of achievement that u made someone really happy when she really needed it.hhaa.

i really dunnoe man, its just that she had been a gd companion for me. anyway i was quite freaked out also when one of my closest fren does the same thing.its is so unlike of him to even think of doing this kind of things, but hell ya, he did it, went out with HER, dine with HER and so on. he claimed that she had suddenly popped out of his life to be there for him during his post-break-up blues when he needed someone most.

i dunnoe lah, i dunnoe...sometimes i felt that guys are really really weaker than women!