Emo shit

Shit man im feeling dejected now damned.

Ive pangsey-ed my friend during a grp project meeting just go home with a girl. And all the while, in the bus she kept talking about this guy whom she has feelings for. Power ah way to go man, ive pangsey-ed my friends just to send home a girl who doesnt even have the slightest feelings for me, and at the same time get in the bad books among my friends.

Fuck man.

Im really tired with all these chasings and with the same results always. All these two years have been a total nightmare to me, just to find a gf. How freaking narrow minded can i get!

I just cannot forget the short stint during army i have with K, a total pangsey-er. Ok i asked her out to meet at the national lib at 6 so that we could have dinner tgth. Shit man i can remember how tired i was that day, just finished my 24 hr duty ystd and my practical lesson, where i finally rushed to the lib, not wanting to be late. And finally at 6.15 she apologized to me saying she would be late and she's still at home and she'll reach in half an hour's time so i said its ok. and then i waited and waited and waited when finally at SEVEN she msg me she couldnt make it.

Damned. I was lucky i was in the library at least i can do some reading. But i really dun understand man, if she really dun want to go out with me initially, just SAY so lah, i wont feel sad or angry or anything than to ask me to wait for an hour and then nv turn uP!

and then there's this D, who is a MASTER at pangsey; ive nv known anyone who pangsey better than her. i seriously thought there will be sth between me and her and all the more when she said yes when i asked her out. I went out super early;so i chilled under my friend's void deck b4 meting her at tamp int. And then, as usual, she msg ed me: she couldnt make it. POWER man, after i went out and all. But i thought its ok, and my hopes are revived when SHE planned of going out with me on my bday, on the 14th. I remembered i couldnt wait for that bloody day everyday and then BINGO on that day she canceled out on me. And then came the last straw when she pangsey-ed me again after not being able to meet up to study in sch tgth.

Shit man i everytime i think about my sorry, pathetic state i feel sad and yet would even have the cheek to try to find someone else.

Should have listened to hyder, once a loser always a loser. Fuck man.