there's something bothering me that apart from talking to my friends, i would just like to write my thoughts down.

i've talked about dysfunctional families before from my experiences with my friends in army, and im now im quite confused about the 'perfect' family, too perfect to be too good.

Sop is my other army friends, and has a very decent family. His has a conservative and loving parents who's still concerned about what time he's going home after his outings and who he's going out with, and where he's going out to. But then there's a twist; sop lies to his parents. Sop drinks, parties,have sex, smokes, and his parents are totally oblivious about it. He told me he had to lie to his parents every week just to go clubbing by saying he's watching some soccer match at his friend's.

From what i see, his parents enforced a control over him and his movements; but TOO much, in my opinions. I was surprised his parents didnt even know he smokes becoz they forbid him to do so, so he had to lie. Okay, my parents know i smoke, but of course, they didnt like it, the only thing they did is to advice me to quit; it was for my own good afterall, and they know im old enough to differentiate the good from the bad.

But sop, i dont know. Probably he feels he's being robbed off the freedom. I was even more shocked when we talked about what we are going to do when we have children and we are the parents ourselves. He told me he would encourage his son to smoke, go clubbing ( he would even bring him there!), and have sex (and advice him to wear protection). So by saying this i could very much deduce what he's feeling right now,about his situation and his parents. But right now, i just think he's just plain corrupted.

But boy, have he some life!

He's like a VIP in china one, being treated like a king, spends alot there on drinks, chilling with friends, hooked up with some chinese and japanese chicks (and finish it in the toilet), get to know with the band members etc etc.

The problem is, he knows it is forbidden in his beliefs and religion, but still does it. its just so easy to be attracted to this kinda things; and im on a crossroad.

Damned.