Suddenly it strikes me that now off-days are worth nothing. it's so different during my bmt, im always eager anticipating my book-out day so that i could chill out, watch movies, go to the beach, etc. but now, my off-days seemed so dull, so empty. i just realised this when my IC gave me my off, and im happy for a moment, but then later realise; whats there to be happy for?? haiZ.

did watch TMNT last sunday with zad and hairoul. its just one of the days you just need to cool ur heads off from ur workplace or any other problems that plagued u. but the highlight was that i bought a new +F50 black adidas ball after the movie. that cheered me up a bit, even though it cost me a whopping S$30.

haizz...its just no use living urself in denial anymore, im just cheating myself, hoping for sth u'll noe u wont ever achieve. trying to make myself look happy, trying to fake the laughs and all that, when wat u really need is to sit down and talk to someone, to express everyting wat u've been keeping from the outside world for all these weeks.